My Ob scheduled my C-section for Feb 26th.
I was thinking I had 2 months left
um, not really
we have
5 WEEKS LEFT!!!
Holy moly
so unless I go into labor early
(which I never have)
cirlce the 26th
Brinley wants a day to day countdown
but honestly
when I do that
it stresses me out
funny how you plan, hope, pray and wish for a baby
and then you realize that it may actually be easier if the baby just stays inside of you
there is less mess that way
and less chaos
of course
if this little guy doesn't stop stretching
and kneeing me in the bladder and hip bones and ribs
I may welcome the chaos!
Never mind
forget I said that
Bring on the chaos...
we have been waiting
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Its a sugar coated world...and I can't eat any of it!
Hello
It's before 3 am thursday morning
and here I am
which makes it
EVERYDAY this week that I have been awake
from about 2am to 5ish
needless to say
I AM EXHAUSTED!
Don't even ask my classes about how grouchy I am
I yelled at some kid
and he just looked at me
and said in the sweetest voice
"exactly when are you due?"
to which I said
in my meanest voice
"not soon enough"
then the whole class laughed
including myself
but they pretty much left me alone
the rest of the period
that is one of the good things about having a class with upper-classmen
they know when to "not poke the bear"
on the other hand my classes that are full of freshmen
don't get that if I am sarcastic and grouchy
it will lead to complete and total
TERROR!
Just kidding...
sort of
Last night I MAY have dozed off
at the dinner table.
Then as I was reading Brinley her bedtime story
she kept having to shake me awake
what's worse,
I don't remember actually finishing the book
So she must have given up
(which I feel terrible about)
that in it of itself is the reason I need a "mental health day"
or a brownie
or a piece of hot fudge cake
or a donut
or a snickers bar
heck,
at this point I want coldstone ice cream...
and I don't like coldstone
but dad-nab-it
I can't eat my way through maternal guilt.
and it really sucks
Even worse is that I have grades due by 3pm on Friday
a doctor appointment at 3:30 (in Salt Lake)
and sharing time on Sunday
I wasn't even tempted over Christmas
to eat sweets
I kept the little guy in mind
heck I even gave an entire container of Almond Roca away
with out even eating one of those delicious toffee nibs...
but add some good old fashioned stress
and a wallop of maternal guilt
and I want to eat my way through the candy aisle
and the bakery department
and the ice cream aisle
and maybe crumble some potato chips on top
and ya know
sugar free pudding
doesn't really fit the bill
It's before 3 am thursday morning
and here I am
which makes it
EVERYDAY this week that I have been awake
from about 2am to 5ish
needless to say
I AM EXHAUSTED!
Don't even ask my classes about how grouchy I am
I yelled at some kid
and he just looked at me
and said in the sweetest voice
"exactly when are you due?"
to which I said
in my meanest voice
"not soon enough"
then the whole class laughed
including myself
but they pretty much left me alone
the rest of the period
that is one of the good things about having a class with upper-classmen
they know when to "not poke the bear"
on the other hand my classes that are full of freshmen
don't get that if I am sarcastic and grouchy
it will lead to complete and total
TERROR!
Just kidding...
sort of
Last night I MAY have dozed off
at the dinner table.
Then as I was reading Brinley her bedtime story
she kept having to shake me awake
what's worse,
I don't remember actually finishing the book
So she must have given up
(which I feel terrible about)
that in it of itself is the reason I need a "mental health day"
or a brownie
or a piece of hot fudge cake
or a donut
or a snickers bar
heck,
at this point I want coldstone ice cream...
and I don't like coldstone
but dad-nab-it
I can't eat my way through maternal guilt.
and it really sucks
Even worse is that I have grades due by 3pm on Friday
a doctor appointment at 3:30 (in Salt Lake)
and sharing time on Sunday
I wasn't even tempted over Christmas
to eat sweets
I kept the little guy in mind
heck I even gave an entire container of Almond Roca away
with out even eating one of those delicious toffee nibs...
but add some good old fashioned stress
and a wallop of maternal guilt
and I want to eat my way through the candy aisle
and the bakery department
and the ice cream aisle
and maybe crumble some potato chips on top
and ya know
sugar free pudding
doesn't really fit the bill
Monday, January 10, 2011
What a Week
It's before 2am Monday
and naturally I am wide awake...
Perhaps my insomnia is preparing me for the sleepless nights once the baby gets here?
Tonight though, I am blaming Brad's c-pap machine.
ya know the machine that keeps his sleep apnea at bay.
it is making a chirping sound
at first I thought a cricket had some how made it's way into our bedroom
but then i realized it is January and the crickets are all hibernating or have flown south
(what do crickets do in winter?)
Anyhoo, I had a busy week and while I was trying to drown out the chirping noise
My brain kicked into high gear
and I went over the week in my head
1. State Test
ugh
how I hate the end of the semester
it means I have to give all my classes the Utah State CTE test
its a pain
and whats worse
my money for next year is tied to the darn scores
The test is online
and so I watch my computer screen for those magic 80% to come in
its torture
I must hit the refresh button 10, 000 times
crossing my fingers that just a few more students get that 80%
the worse is the 79% that comes across
I want to bang my head
because the kid only had to get 1 more question right to pass
even worse than that is the 79.9%
I then want to smack the idiot who thought of testing
Cuz-the state will not round up that score to 80%
it kills me
Please do not ever talk about merit pay and teachers around the semester change
I can do the same things in all of my classes
and in one i will have a decent number of 80%
and in the next...only 3 students will hit that
it is infuriating
it drives me crazy
it makes me loose sleep
and Brad is sick of hearing me complain and/or getting depressed by the class with the 3
2-My ultra sound went great!
the doctor was so impressed with how I am regulating my sugar
(even over christmas)
(which is good
because I am trying REALLY hard to be good...i didn't eat any of the dessert at BUNCO last week)
that she canceled the stress tests and the other ultra sounds!
woo-hoo
I do get one more ultra sound in February
He looks good.
He looks strong.
He looks healthy.
His head does not appear to be ginormous...like a certain parental unit had as a baby
He stayed all curled up in the fetus position during the ultra sound
which is the only time the little guy hasn't had his foot or arm in my rib cage in weeks!
I am not complaining
I am trying to enjoy these last few months of pregnancy
since it is my last
I want to remember everything
even how this little guy has the knack of bouncing on my bladder
causing me to RUN to the bathroom at a moments notice
seriously
I have had to RUN out of class
and I have never done that
not in 12 years of teaching
oh and my placenta is moving away from my old c-section scar
so I don't need to really lay awake worrying about that!
3-I won $100 bucks from the radio station!
they said to be the 93rd caller when I heard a Rascal Flatts song
I was waiting for the girls to get at of school
so I started calling
I dialed and dialed and dialed
I almost gave up, but tried one more time
they answered and said,
Whats your name? "michelle"
michelle you just won $100 dollars!
and yes I was such a nerd
I screamed
on the radio
and then I had to moo
on the radio
I am a tad embarassed by how excited I was
but hey
I have $100 coming
I will moo in front of anyone for cash money!
On Saturday,
we got out the bassinet and baby bouncer
its all washed and ready
Brinley was so impressed with the bassinet
she wants the baby to sleep in her room... NOW!
(we will remind her of that in about 3 or 4 months)
She is worried about the bassinet only having pink sheets...
"mom, they are sooo000 cute but are kind of girlie" she squealed
My fiscally minded husband
said, "he will only be sleeping on them for 2 months"
( i am looking for blue ones on pay day....
or when i get my 100 dollars from K-Bull 93)
MOOOOOOOOO!
and naturally I am wide awake...
Perhaps my insomnia is preparing me for the sleepless nights once the baby gets here?
Tonight though, I am blaming Brad's c-pap machine.
ya know the machine that keeps his sleep apnea at bay.
it is making a chirping sound
at first I thought a cricket had some how made it's way into our bedroom
but then i realized it is January and the crickets are all hibernating or have flown south
(what do crickets do in winter?)
Anyhoo, I had a busy week and while I was trying to drown out the chirping noise
My brain kicked into high gear
and I went over the week in my head
1. State Test
ugh
how I hate the end of the semester
it means I have to give all my classes the Utah State CTE test
its a pain
and whats worse
my money for next year is tied to the darn scores
The test is online
and so I watch my computer screen for those magic 80% to come in
its torture
I must hit the refresh button 10, 000 times
crossing my fingers that just a few more students get that 80%
the worse is the 79% that comes across
I want to bang my head
because the kid only had to get 1 more question right to pass
even worse than that is the 79.9%
I then want to smack the idiot who thought of testing
Cuz-the state will not round up that score to 80%
it kills me
Please do not ever talk about merit pay and teachers around the semester change
I can do the same things in all of my classes
and in one i will have a decent number of 80%
and in the next...only 3 students will hit that
it is infuriating
it drives me crazy
it makes me loose sleep
and Brad is sick of hearing me complain and/or getting depressed by the class with the 3
2-My ultra sound went great!
the doctor was so impressed with how I am regulating my sugar
(even over christmas)
(which is good
because I am trying REALLY hard to be good...i didn't eat any of the dessert at BUNCO last week)
that she canceled the stress tests and the other ultra sounds!
woo-hoo
I do get one more ultra sound in February
He looks good.
He looks strong.
He looks healthy.
His head does not appear to be ginormous...like a certain parental unit had as a baby
He stayed all curled up in the fetus position during the ultra sound
which is the only time the little guy hasn't had his foot or arm in my rib cage in weeks!
I am not complaining
I am trying to enjoy these last few months of pregnancy
since it is my last
I want to remember everything
even how this little guy has the knack of bouncing on my bladder
causing me to RUN to the bathroom at a moments notice
seriously
I have had to RUN out of class
and I have never done that
not in 12 years of teaching
oh and my placenta is moving away from my old c-section scar
so I don't need to really lay awake worrying about that!
3-I won $100 bucks from the radio station!
they said to be the 93rd caller when I heard a Rascal Flatts song
I was waiting for the girls to get at of school
so I started calling
I dialed and dialed and dialed
I almost gave up, but tried one more time
they answered and said,
Whats your name? "michelle"
michelle you just won $100 dollars!
and yes I was such a nerd
I screamed
on the radio
and then I had to moo
on the radio
I am a tad embarassed by how excited I was
but hey
I have $100 coming
I will moo in front of anyone for cash money!
On Saturday,
we got out the bassinet and baby bouncer
its all washed and ready
Brinley was so impressed with the bassinet
she wants the baby to sleep in her room... NOW!
(we will remind her of that in about 3 or 4 months)
She is worried about the bassinet only having pink sheets...
"mom, they are sooo000 cute but are kind of girlie" she squealed
My fiscally minded husband
said, "he will only be sleeping on them for 2 months"
( i am looking for blue ones on pay day....
or when i get my 100 dollars from K-Bull 93)
MOOOOOOOOO!
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
I Can't Sleep
Its almost 5am
I have been awake since 1:30
Will someone turn off my brain!
I can not stop thinking...
...Planning my sharing time for Sunday; sad about changes in Primary; worried what new calling will be; planning review game for school tomorrow; wondering if I should buy treats to bribe my classes into reviewing for test; worried about test scores; worried about class budget; worried about home budget; ohhh that was a nice kick to my bladder little guy; need to update the class list for all 220 students; thinking about next semester; wondering about subsitute during maternity leave; what should I make for dinner tonight; Bunco's tonight and I have to wear jammies, which jammies do I look less pregnant in; Oh -nice jab to the ribs little one; oh yeah-I am having a new baby in 2 months...what the heck was I thinking; I have an ultrasound on Wednesday; wonder what this new guy will look like; exactly how tall was Goliath and how am I going to draw a picture of him; I really need to get out the breast pump and make sure it is working; I may need to buy new parts; I need to buy a car seat; I hope my baby is cute; What the heck-is this baby doing the macarena in utero; I hope my baby is healthy; I really want a candy bar; why do they transfer new students into my class with only 2 week left in the semester; don't forget the Book of Mormon's that are in the van-I need to glue the scripture challenge paper in them; is Aiden the right name for the baby; is 2 middle names pretentious; what do I need to do on my prep; what can I eat for breakfast; once I deliver this baby I am going to make all of the christmas treats I couldn't; what if I end up with Type 2 diabetes-then no treats for me-EVER; I am really hungry-should I test my sugars now and then eat; i wish there was more sugar free stuff-what's out there is pretty bad...
See this is only a smidge of the things that have been running through my head the last 3 hours!
will someone please
SHUT
OFF
MY
BRAIN!
I have been awake since 1:30
Will someone turn off my brain!
I can not stop thinking...
...Planning my sharing time for Sunday; sad about changes in Primary; worried what new calling will be; planning review game for school tomorrow; wondering if I should buy treats to bribe my classes into reviewing for test; worried about test scores; worried about class budget; worried about home budget; ohhh that was a nice kick to my bladder little guy; need to update the class list for all 220 students; thinking about next semester; wondering about subsitute during maternity leave; what should I make for dinner tonight; Bunco's tonight and I have to wear jammies, which jammies do I look less pregnant in; Oh -nice jab to the ribs little one; oh yeah-I am having a new baby in 2 months...what the heck was I thinking; I have an ultrasound on Wednesday; wonder what this new guy will look like; exactly how tall was Goliath and how am I going to draw a picture of him; I really need to get out the breast pump and make sure it is working; I may need to buy new parts; I need to buy a car seat; I hope my baby is cute; What the heck-is this baby doing the macarena in utero; I hope my baby is healthy; I really want a candy bar; why do they transfer new students into my class with only 2 week left in the semester; don't forget the Book of Mormon's that are in the van-I need to glue the scripture challenge paper in them; is Aiden the right name for the baby; is 2 middle names pretentious; what do I need to do on my prep; what can I eat for breakfast; once I deliver this baby I am going to make all of the christmas treats I couldn't; what if I end up with Type 2 diabetes-then no treats for me-EVER; I am really hungry-should I test my sugars now and then eat; i wish there was more sugar free stuff-what's out there is pretty bad...
See this is only a smidge of the things that have been running through my head the last 3 hours!
will someone please
SHUT
OFF
MY
BRAIN!
Monday, January 3, 2011
Happy New Year
welp
Christmas Break is over.
I had to go back to work today
and man
I am soooo tired!
2 weeks of not having to wake up early, getting showered and dressed late really spoiled me.
So did 2 weeks of eating a good breakfast...
by 10am I was STARVING!
(By the way, Atkins Protein Bars are the most disgusting thing I have ever eaten)
We had a wonderful Christmas.
Here are the girlies in their Christmas Eve Pjs. This is a tradition I did as a kid and have carried it on. Plus, it is the only time I can dress them matchy and no one complains!
All of the girls wishes came true
...except for the laptop that Emily wanted
...santa (and I) don't think an 11 year old needs her own laptop.
Santa did leave a new camera and mascara in her stocking
so that ALMOST made up for it!
She also got lots of new clothes, including TWO shirts from Areo
She is at a hard age...too old for toys...
except she did ask for Bendaroos...
which have proven to be fun!
Brin was in Barbie paradise...
after all the gifts were opened she ended up with four new ones!
She is also in love with the pillow pet Gagam gave her! It's pretty cute and I am totally going to buy the monkey one for me! I mean the baby.
Our family gift was the kinnect for the X-box. Brad discovered that our furniture arrangement did not allow for "maximum playing" so on Sunday, we spent the afternoon rearranging the furniture.
as for my Christmas Break To-Do list, I did accomplish some of it:
1. Finished book 5 of Fablehaven-finished the series...disappointed in the ending
2. Start and finish the Hunger Games. I started this on Saturday morning and finished it that night! It was THAT good...can't wait to read #2!
3. Finish my 12 month of Snowmen Quilt-
I heart snowmen!
Every month in 2010 I got a free new snowman applique. The designs are from bunnyhill.com She has a new FREE one coming out for 2011. I think it has to do with jars....
So I have finished all 12 and need to assemble the quilt.
This is one of my favorite appliques from the set.
4. Finished the baby's quilt. (I am finished...and it is super cute)
His name will be appliqued in the white space...once he is here and we (meaning me) have permanently chosen a name!I got the free pattern at modabakeshop.com. They offer free quilt patterns every other day or so and some of them are super cute.
This was the first quilt I have ever had to assemble on the diagonal...I think its is called 'on point' in the quilting world. It was kind of confusing.
5. Finished my Holiday table runner (I actually used it before christmas dinner)
5. Finished my Holiday table runner (I actually used it before christmas dinner)
6. Baked banana bread for all of Brad's work people
7. Baked cookies for santa with Emily and Brin
It is always a lot of fun...Em always puts flour on her face...and I spend several months cleaning up all the sprinkles!13. Finished organizing recipes- but spent time on some foodie blogs...so I have more...I really need to stop looking at blogs
14. Organized craft dungeon-sort of
15. I did try 4 new recipes.
16. Found a new Ob. I decided I wouldn't go to the one here in Tooele for a band-aid, let alone have her cut me open and yank out my child! I am fully aware that this makes 3 Ob's this pregnancy...but, for the first time in 3 months I am at peace with our decision.
17. Survived driving home from new Ob, in the blizzard last Wednesday. I never went above 30mph on I-80, it was that bad!
18. My mom visited and got snowed in with us! We had a nice visit...and watched it snow all day on Friday. We also watched as my crazy sister tried to drive in all that snow! She did a 360 in front of our house and almost took out the fire hydrant on the corner, then she ran the stop sign and almost got hit by an SUV, then the nerd called WHILE DRIVING and started to screech "I am slipping!" My mom said she is a "stubborn little ******* and a tad OCD". True...so True.
Hope you are all safe and happy
Here's to 2011...
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