PMS ranting

It's 2 am and I am wide awake. Usually I have insomnia during Aug-May, I call it "school induced insomnia". Since it is the end of June, I am blaming the fact that I am on blogger at 2 frickin am on PMS!?
I have been particularly grouchy this week...maybe I notice it more because I am not taking it out on high school students. Emily even told me I have been talking to myself an awful lot this week. Sorry, it's how I deal; I mean better yell at myself than her. I have been so bad, I am remembering that Everybody Loves Raymond episode about PMS. I am almost that bad.
I have decided my biggest problem with blogging (besides consistency) is that I lack a VISION. What exactly is my blog suppose to be about? I am not sure, and that is why I don't post a lot.
I keep up with several blogs. Many of them are foodie/recipe blogs. SEVERAL of them are various crafty blogs and many are just friends/family blogs.
Do I want this to be a foodie blog? If so, then you have to try the rib recipe I made for dinner on Tuesday! But I didn't come up with the recipe, I found it online 2 summers ago and have been using it since. So I shouldn't post it-it's not my recipe.
I have been sewing and crafting up a storm these first weeks of summer vacation. I made a new bag, Emily an outfit for church, Brinley a dress, and have been working on two quilts. I plan on finishing my menu board and making Brinley a fourth of July dress. Should I show all of this? Here's the thing...I create for ME. I don't need other people to tell me how good it looks or blah blah. I did it to create something, I feel the accomplishment and it makes me feel good. If I post pictures I feel like I am bragging and that is not what I am after. I do not want my little corner of cyberspace to be a way for me to prove to the world how many "mommy projects" I get done in a day or week. Blogs like that turn me off, I find them nauseating and a little sad. It's like they are trying to convince themselves how idylic their life is...and hey it's not...life is hard...life is great...life is funny...but a lot of the time it is hard and I am just trying to get through. When you only read about how perfect other peoples are, it seems desperate. like lindsey lohan desperate...
My favorite blogs are ones that keep it real. So maybe that is my vision. Keepin it real. So here is my REALITY based summer review:
It has taken the entire month of June to get our above ground pool up! it sank on one side last year so this year we decided to put bricks under each pole. this lead to a leak because (we think) it put to much pressure on the seams. We filled it about 2/3 and then drained the darn thing to find the leak...never did. So we refilled it only to have one of the bricks slip and poke a big hole in the bottom. brad basically had to snorkle to put the patch on...then we moved the bricks out. So far it has held...I REALLY do NOT want to see our water bill.
So the pool has been up and the kids swimming away and I develop some weird reaction to the sun and sunscreen and have this rash all over. For the next week, if I go out, I have to wear long sleeves and a hat. My Dr put me on steroids and Brad made a few jokes about "roid rage". See if i just posted pictures of kids in the pool, smiling and happy, that doesn't tell the story. The real story is that above ground pools are a pain and now we can't get the chemicals right.