a Love/Hate relationship

In a week or so my family and I will be going on our annual family vacation to "The Cabin". Its in Wyoming. I am already stressed! See I love the cabin, I look forward to going...and yet I HATE it at the same time. To start I am going to list the reasons I love the cabin and then why I don't.

Things I Love:
1. it is gorgeous
2. there are no phones or internet (so I don't have to listen the constant chirping of Brad's I-phone or his sheep as he plays Farmville)
3. it is a cute, rustic cabin
4. i think about grandma reese in the tiny kitchen and her cooking a "big breakfast"-cleaning up and starting on lunch-cleaning up and starting dinner-cleaning up. We make it a point to have a "big breakfast" in her honor at least once
5. the lake is cool...but the lake on a boat is FANTASTIC! Hours of fun and sun!
6. the stars from the front deck are incredible. At night you can see falling stars, identify the different constellations...and see the satelites rotating with the earth.
7. Brad is not cheap when we are on vacation!
8. The mom and pop shops in town are cool. As are the mom and pop diners/restaurants. The city doesn't even have a McDonald's. In fact the closest fast food is like two hours away. How refreshing is that?
9. I get tons of uber-cute pics to scrap!
10. We do have a lot of fun

So I know you are all thinking, what is there to hate. My number one thing is that once the sun goes down, I do not like being there! I asked Brad 2 years ago if we could spend the DAY at the cabin and then go to town and sleep in a hotel at night! He looked at me like I was crazy and mumbled something about my being a princess. I don't care...at night this cabin becomes...scary...and I dont sleep!

See I never sleep well when I am away from home (even when I bring my own pillow)
I just can't seem to relax anywhere, but at home. But at the cabin, my insomnia is worse.
Every noise makes me jumpy! And trust me it has a story
It was 5 years ago and I was 8 1/2 months pregnant with Brinley. the 6th Harry Potter book had just come out and I was reading it at 3 am. Brad and Em were sound asleep. I hear a rustling and look up from my tale of Harry and the Half Blood Prince to see what I think is a bird fly by. I wake Brad up...he tells me its a moth and to go to sleep. So I go back to reading and listening to this "moth" flap its wings in the next room...when it flys over my head and practically dive bombs me and I realize it is a BAT! I scream! Brad sees it and yelps! The bat flys into the room where Em is alseep! We get her out of there and Brad shuts the door and says it's trapped in there we will all just sleep together and take care of it in the morning. Just then ANOTHER bat flies past him! We high-tailed out of the cabin and spent the next 5 or 6 hours driving around western Wyoming trying to figure out what to do.

The next year we go up, and a bat lands on me while I am asleep. Even worse a baby bat gets trapped in our towels and we bring the little bastard home with us!

The bat problem has been solved. there haven't been any for two years. Still I do not find the cabin restful at night. I lay awake all night, jumping at every little noise. freaking out when an actual moth brushes by. At about 3am I have to pee, and will lay there until I can't take it and run to the bathroom, turning on every light and ducking my head the entire way. I lay awake until the sky goes from black to milky gray and then I fall asleep. I put in my ear phones to drowned out the noise, but then think that if some crazy mountain man breaks in I won't hear us being murdered, so I take out the earphones, and then hear every bump and moth fly by...its a vicious cylce! My imagination comes ALIVE at night! Its why I can't sleep.

Other things to dislike:
1. True nature is pretty...but it is dirty and like bugs live in it. Last year (or maybe two years ago) I had 65 mosquito bites! Brin had 33! Yes I do realize they make bug spray, but I am a concerned parent and have read all of the warnings about DEET. But that year my girly and fresh smelling bug spray did nothing to deter the blood-sucking bugs! I had to contaminate my kids, my self and the ozone with deep woods off-which contains a ton of DEET.
2. there is no phone service-so we can't call anyone to help us out when bats dive-bomb us. Along with that there is not a TV. Which seems like a great idea, until you are trying to do something and can't tell your kids to go watch Disney channel. Not that I EVER do that-it would just be nice to have the option ;)
3. It is a rustic cabin-with only a septic tank (a very old tank). So the motto is "if its yellow let it mellow...." you know where I am going with this
4. the dirt road is very narrow and I refuse to drive down it. Heck 3 years ago I made Brad drive down when he had kidney stones. I just can't do it. I even make my sister drive our van down to the boat dock because its so narrow!
5. The lake is COLD...Butt cold...I do not see how my kids can swim in it
6. I do not get any sleep at the cabin!

I guess my list of dislikes is shorter than I thought.

Still it would be nice to go to a hotel.